i duno what's wrong with me lately.. but i just dont like me. the fact that i'm like this...all emo and stuff. when i see myself.. i feel fat. when i see myself.. i don't recognize me. it just makes me wonder who i've become. and the more i think about it.. i would hate to meet someone like me... which brings me to the point that .. i don't like myself.

i feel so empty,
so useless,
so pathetic.

i'm all alone with no one to lean on for real. i feel like i need to cry out loud and just sob my stupid tears away. i wish trai and ingiee were here, back from their trip. i wish calvun was here so at least i know that he's here to give me some advice and just talk to me. these are the top three people that i miss the most at the moment. and just the ppl i really need here for me, cuz i'm tired, broken and beaten down. i feel worn out and sinful.

those that are important.. s and b. they're not someone i can rely on. cuz i don't think they understand. i dun think they can make my day better.. cuz they already can't.

i'm sorry.
i don't know what's wrong with me.
sorry.
sorry.
sorry.

























save. me.
from. me.

blog is messed up =(

lately, vivian has been sick with the flu =( but she hasn't blogged in a long time so she's gonna now. and she's also gonna stop referring to herself in third person =_=''

okay. so on friday, ingiee justin and i hit pmall. haha mainly walked and talked and sat..cuz i wasn't feeling that good ><'' then we ran into jess, angela c, bryan, and sampson. but then i got really really sick so i went home T^T
turns out i have the flu... pooey.
bleehh. so much for the awesome long weekend. i had to cancel shopping with ingrid and trai on saturday too =(( zomg. how gay. and i didn't get to go to church ><''
poor jenny too~! =( we both caught the fluuuu T^T wahhhh

oh yea. i still need a dress for semi~! o_o'' and i still need MONEY for the semi. LMAO. i'm so broke it's sad =(

anyhoos, i hope i get betterrr, i hope jenny gets better, and nate, and jess and jamjam too~! =] <3
lots of love to everyone~! hope i didn't give you the flu ><'' i'm sorry!!

gonna do some hmk now =] laterzz.

ps. i hope angela *kwok* feels better soon.. in love life and in health =( i really dun want you being sick huns. to see you sad and broken hearted. there are still plenty of guys out there and i know they might not all be someone like tommy but there is someone out there for you <3>

pss. i also hope that lawrence ko feels better too. i know recently he has been having many problems like.. family problems, money problems and school problems. and he's caught influenza too.. but i just want him to know that there are plenty of friends that are all supporting him and if he needs to talk or just to rely on we'll always be there for him. Stay strong lawrence~!!!!!!

psss. I love trai and ing~! <33